Aw yeah...
So on my break yesterday at work, I tracked down Big Brother.
I presented my suggestion/request to swap with the other operator who has also worked remotely with the folks Down South come the first of October.
He did me one better - when I go back to work on Sunday, I'm going back in the afternoon...and playing for the Home Team again. :-)
WOOT!
Of course, the Universe rarely gives one a pass gratis.
The condition for this manifestation of relief is to get back on track with my Work.
I have found my motivation.
Buckle up, folks! hee hee hee...
Friday, September 19, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
Detour? Regression? WTF!
Okay, tonight I'm Captain Crankypants and I need to get this outta my system.
The Harvest has taken an odd turn, and I'm not too terribly happy about it, truth be told...
I have been tapped to do some "remote operator" work for an answering service Down South. Basically, this means I'm in two places at once. (lol)
Recent events Down South - as in nasty hurricanes that try to flood everything in sight, if they can't blow everything down first! - have thrown the plans into chaos. What was only supposed to last "a couple of weeks" has now stretched to the end of the month...and may go even longer than that.
So now what was a part-time job in more of a "swing-shift" capacity has become a full time job where I have to set my alarm again to make sure I get up at a decent hour (Most of the time I beat it to the punch, but still!). And drama llamas are lurking behind the corners of both offices, ready to run amok at the drop of a hat. And while I'm at it, what is up with Gemini women born on June 5th?!? I've know two so far, and they've both managed to annoy the snot out of me!! :-o
The point is, not only am I feeling everyone's stress around me, I'm also feeling old stuff triggered within me - what I thought I'd left behind when I left the synagogue. In a sense, I've gone back into "survival" mode - and the Indigo Diva within me is SO done with survival.
We've got Important Work to do! What is up with all of this nonsense! This is so not what I signed on for! she rants.
And this is not when I'm in complete hysterics, as I was just before my oh-so-fortuitously timed vacation! It's really Pre-Menstrual Sensitivity, I'll tell y'all right now!
In my better moments, I know this, too, has a purpose - and this, too, shall pass.
In my better moments, I know what to do to counteract the dead vibrations, and do so.
But right now I just feel like doing a Bionic Pout. BLEH!
Gods willing this gives me the motivation to get busy with the Real Work, once things return to something closer than normal! ;-)
*deep breath*
Ahh, thank you. I do feel better now.
The Harvest has taken an odd turn, and I'm not too terribly happy about it, truth be told...
I have been tapped to do some "remote operator" work for an answering service Down South. Basically, this means I'm in two places at once. (lol)
Recent events Down South - as in nasty hurricanes that try to flood everything in sight, if they can't blow everything down first! - have thrown the plans into chaos. What was only supposed to last "a couple of weeks" has now stretched to the end of the month...and may go even longer than that.
So now what was a part-time job in more of a "swing-shift" capacity has become a full time job where I have to set my alarm again to make sure I get up at a decent hour (Most of the time I beat it to the punch, but still!). And drama llamas are lurking behind the corners of both offices, ready to run amok at the drop of a hat. And while I'm at it, what is up with Gemini women born on June 5th?!? I've know two so far, and they've both managed to annoy the snot out of me!! :-o
The point is, not only am I feeling everyone's stress around me, I'm also feeling old stuff triggered within me - what I thought I'd left behind when I left the synagogue. In a sense, I've gone back into "survival" mode - and the Indigo Diva within me is SO done with survival.
We've got Important Work to do! What is up with all of this nonsense! This is so not what I signed on for! she rants.
And this is not when I'm in complete hysterics, as I was just before my oh-so-fortuitously timed vacation! It's really Pre-Menstrual Sensitivity, I'll tell y'all right now!
In my better moments, I know this, too, has a purpose - and this, too, shall pass.
In my better moments, I know what to do to counteract the dead vibrations, and do so.
But right now I just feel like doing a Bionic Pout. BLEH!
Gods willing this gives me the motivation to get busy with the Real Work, once things return to something closer than normal! ;-)
*deep breath*
Ahh, thank you. I do feel better now.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Life as Pop-Quiz
Plans are changing with massive rapidity as of late...!
First I'm going to do a healing on a co-worker. Then I'm not.
A friend cancels her plans, so I make new ones with another. Then the original plan comes back into place as said friend uncancels herself.
A trip in early September looked to be derailed due to "circumstances beyond control." I'm still taking said trip, however, but the Universe will be setting the agenda.
It wasn't terribly long ago that I was advised that I would have to release attachment.
I've had the suspicion this week that I'm being tested on how well I've become in this releasing.
Testing my flexibility, and capacities for improvisation.
So far, I think I'm doing a lovely job of allowing Grace to lead the way... :-)
First I'm going to do a healing on a co-worker. Then I'm not.
A friend cancels her plans, so I make new ones with another. Then the original plan comes back into place as said friend uncancels herself.
A trip in early September looked to be derailed due to "circumstances beyond control." I'm still taking said trip, however, but the Universe will be setting the agenda.
It wasn't terribly long ago that I was advised that I would have to release attachment.
I've had the suspicion this week that I'm being tested on how well I've become in this releasing.
Testing my flexibility, and capacities for improvisation.
So far, I think I'm doing a lovely job of allowing Grace to lead the way... :-)
Thursday, August 7, 2008
notes from the First Harvest
Well!
For the second phase of my intensive, Kuan Yin stepped aside and guided me to the "power trinity" of Durga, Shakti, and Kali! All of these Hindu Goddesses are Very Powerful, so I knew I wasn't going to be messing around! (lol)
I was also lent a very power*full CD called Crystal Bowls of Tibet, composed by Jacob Hans & Richard Jelusich. This will move mountains for you if you're ready for it! And I needed a little mountain moving...
Suffice to say that for the first part of this intensive, I felt Durga at my head, filling me with courage & strength, as warrior Goddesses can do so well. Shaki, the Creatrix of the Universe, was at my feet, managing the energies flowing through me. Kali, the great "Dark Mother" of Creation & Destruction, straddled me, occasionally plunging Her hands into my chest. At length, I drew out a small creature with many legs, a sharp hook at the end of each leg, and destroyed it myself.
The second part of the intensive was to re-balance my body and fill the vacuum that had been created by the removal of the Shadow-Matrix. I found the balancing point as the moon finished its journey from waning to new, and entered Lammas ready to seal the deal, as it were.
Suffice to say the deal has been sealed. Powerfully.
I have shed my foreboding & dread as the snake sheds her skin. :-)
To cap it all of, on the night of the anniversary of my father's death, I played Astarius' Reiki Temple Chants. Um, can we say another mountain mover & a perfect bookend to the process?
Through all of this, I am becoming more & more sensitive to feeling energy flowing through my hands & body. My hands have actually begun twitching & shaking when a healing frequency moves through them! I have begun to "tap" with my hands; looks like another avenue opening up to research a bit! (as if I don't have several other modalities on my plate already!) ;-)
I am currently resting a bit before the Next Event: the opening of the Triple-8 gate on the earth-plane (8/8/08). This may very well be a doozy in the best sense...!
For the second phase of my intensive, Kuan Yin stepped aside and guided me to the "power trinity" of Durga, Shakti, and Kali! All of these Hindu Goddesses are Very Powerful, so I knew I wasn't going to be messing around! (lol)
I was also lent a very power*full CD called Crystal Bowls of Tibet, composed by Jacob Hans & Richard Jelusich. This will move mountains for you if you're ready for it! And I needed a little mountain moving...
Suffice to say that for the first part of this intensive, I felt Durga at my head, filling me with courage & strength, as warrior Goddesses can do so well. Shaki, the Creatrix of the Universe, was at my feet, managing the energies flowing through me. Kali, the great "Dark Mother" of Creation & Destruction, straddled me, occasionally plunging Her hands into my chest. At length, I drew out a small creature with many legs, a sharp hook at the end of each leg, and destroyed it myself.
The second part of the intensive was to re-balance my body and fill the vacuum that had been created by the removal of the Shadow-Matrix. I found the balancing point as the moon finished its journey from waning to new, and entered Lammas ready to seal the deal, as it were.
Suffice to say the deal has been sealed. Powerfully.
I have shed my foreboding & dread as the snake sheds her skin. :-)
To cap it all of, on the night of the anniversary of my father's death, I played Astarius' Reiki Temple Chants. Um, can we say another mountain mover & a perfect bookend to the process?
Through all of this, I am becoming more & more sensitive to feeling energy flowing through my hands & body. My hands have actually begun twitching & shaking when a healing frequency moves through them! I have begun to "tap" with my hands; looks like another avenue opening up to research a bit! (as if I don't have several other modalities on my plate already!) ;-)
I am currently resting a bit before the Next Event: the opening of the Triple-8 gate on the earth-plane (8/8/08). This may very well be a doozy in the best sense...!
Friday, August 1, 2008
~eye of the storm~
On this Lammas day,
I seem to have been given a breather by the Universe,
between bouts of intense shape-shifting.
So it's entirely possible
now that my new schedule has taken effect
that I'll spend all day in my pajamas.
Or maybe not.
May your harvest be bounty*full and beyond your wildest dreams this season.
(And if you're in the Southern hemisphere while reading this...may you have the courage to dream bodaciously as you select which seeds to plant this year.) ;-)
I seem to have been given a breather by the Universe,
between bouts of intense shape-shifting.
So it's entirely possible
now that my new schedule has taken effect
that I'll spend all day in my pajamas.
Or maybe not.
May your harvest be bounty*full and beyond your wildest dreams this season.
(And if you're in the Southern hemisphere while reading this...may you have the courage to dream bodaciously as you select which seeds to plant this year.) ;-)
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