I would love to provide details - in fact, I've been poised on the edge of adding to this blog several times - I've been poised to make posts on the boards of the cyber-communities that I belong to...but the words won't come.
At least, not here. Not in the strange private~public place that is cyberspace.
My words wait until the morning, when all is quiet, then they spill out onto the pages of my journal. I have been writing like a mad woman these past few days and weeks.
An amusing aside: as I entered this month of October, I put out into the Universe I needed a new journal. Come my birthday, I had three journals! As I tend to take a year to fill a journal completely, I will be taken care of for quite some time! (lol)
Back to this latest turn in the labyrinth...
I know that I am returning to the core of Who I Am in this world, and going a little bit deeper still.
I am returning to the point of Singularity within myself, and following it back to its source...to my Source.
Perhaps I am on the verge of a vast sea change that will transform everything in my life.
I don't know, yet.
So I must abide, and hold myself in absolute acceptance - and when my words are ready to be poured out into the world, they will pour out~spill out~rush out, for mass consumption.
For now, I am content to wait, and watch, and wonder.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
37 things about me.
Back again. Just like I promised. ;-)
Stealing an idea from a couple of my fellow blogging peeps; here are 37 things about me, in honor of my birthday. In semi-particular order:
1) I live with a cat.
2) I am the third generation in my family (at least!) who has shared a lifetime with cats.
3) The cat is the second totem animal to come into my life.
4) The first totem animal in my life was/is the hammerhead shark. Seriously.
5) One of my big dreams growing up was to swim with hammerhead sharks. Seriously.
6) I thought I had to give up that dream when I left the path of scientific education. :-(
7) I saw that dream resurrected when I heard that they will let you swim with the sharks in the ginormous Atlanta aquarium. :-)
8) So that's one of the dreams on my "Master To-Do" list.
9) I will fulfill another dream when I go to Japan on my 40th birthday. It's as good as a done deal.
10) Hawaii, however, has been popping up all over the place recently. Yo, Universe, some details please!
11) So has the book Eat, Pray, Love. All right already; I'll read the bloody book! (lol)
12) The same thing happened to me with The DaVinci Code...brilliant read, btw.
13) I am a voracious reader. A cereal box can capture my complete attention.
14) I read the newspaper. You can pick your jaw up off the ground now... ;-)
15) My favorite sections are the funnies and the weekly "News of the Weird" column.
16) The strangeness of people never ceases to amaze me.
17) My reading material of choice is science-fiction.
18) Most of my viewing material of choice is science-fiction as well.
19) I do, however, watch a lot of sports. Go Chargers, Kings, and Lakers!!
20) I also think Rafael Nadal is a tennis stud, and the Williams sisters rock the universe.
21) I love hearing accents, especially overseas ones. Y'all can come read my phonebook aloud anytime. ;-)
22) My daddy was from Texas and my momma from Missouri; my grandmother was from Kentucky.
23) Some people don't think that's "Southern" enough. ;-)
24) I, however, was born in California. Yes, I'm a native Californian! :-o
25) And I still think California is the best state going. Der Governator is a bonus.
26) I voted for Ah-nold even though I'm a registered Democrat.
27) I'll start paying serious attention to politics when the politicians quit letting their inner five-year-olds make all the decisions for them!
28) I do not look like your "typical" Cali-girl; I am brunette, and have serious curves.
29) I love every single one of my curves.
30) It took several years to love myself into acceptance and gratitude for my curves.
31) As hinted above, I was a classically trained Western scientist. I have a BA in Marine Biology and English.
32) I am the first - and the last - alumna of my university to have such a degree.
33) The Universe, however, had other plans for me...and blew my mind wide open.
34) When I grow up, I want to be a Jedi Master.
35) Or maybe a taiko drummer.
36) I started drumming ten years ago (May 1998)
37) And that was the first door that opened for me...
Hey, that wasn't too hard at all.
I think I'll leave it right there, and be a total tease. ;-)
Stealing an idea from a couple of my fellow blogging peeps; here are 37 things about me, in honor of my birthday. In semi-particular order:
1) I live with a cat.
2) I am the third generation in my family (at least!) who has shared a lifetime with cats.
3) The cat is the second totem animal to come into my life.
4) The first totem animal in my life was/is the hammerhead shark. Seriously.
5) One of my big dreams growing up was to swim with hammerhead sharks. Seriously.
6) I thought I had to give up that dream when I left the path of scientific education. :-(
7) I saw that dream resurrected when I heard that they will let you swim with the sharks in the ginormous Atlanta aquarium. :-)
8) So that's one of the dreams on my "Master To-Do" list.
9) I will fulfill another dream when I go to Japan on my 40th birthday. It's as good as a done deal.
10) Hawaii, however, has been popping up all over the place recently. Yo, Universe, some details please!
11) So has the book Eat, Pray, Love. All right already; I'll read the bloody book! (lol)
12) The same thing happened to me with The DaVinci Code...brilliant read, btw.
13) I am a voracious reader. A cereal box can capture my complete attention.
14) I read the newspaper. You can pick your jaw up off the ground now... ;-)
15) My favorite sections are the funnies and the weekly "News of the Weird" column.
16) The strangeness of people never ceases to amaze me.
17) My reading material of choice is science-fiction.
18) Most of my viewing material of choice is science-fiction as well.
19) I do, however, watch a lot of sports. Go Chargers, Kings, and Lakers!!
20) I also think Rafael Nadal is a tennis stud, and the Williams sisters rock the universe.
21) I love hearing accents, especially overseas ones. Y'all can come read my phonebook aloud anytime. ;-)
22) My daddy was from Texas and my momma from Missouri; my grandmother was from Kentucky.
23) Some people don't think that's "Southern" enough. ;-)
24) I, however, was born in California. Yes, I'm a native Californian! :-o
25) And I still think California is the best state going. Der Governator is a bonus.
26) I voted for Ah-nold even though I'm a registered Democrat.
27) I'll start paying serious attention to politics when the politicians quit letting their inner five-year-olds make all the decisions for them!
28) I do not look like your "typical" Cali-girl; I am brunette, and have serious curves.
29) I love every single one of my curves.
30) It took several years to love myself into acceptance and gratitude for my curves.
31) As hinted above, I was a classically trained Western scientist. I have a BA in Marine Biology and English.
32) I am the first - and the last - alumna of my university to have such a degree.
33) The Universe, however, had other plans for me...and blew my mind wide open.
34) When I grow up, I want to be a Jedi Master.
35) Or maybe a taiko drummer.
36) I started drumming ten years ago (May 1998)
37) And that was the first door that opened for me...
Hey, that wasn't too hard at all.
I think I'll leave it right there, and be a total tease. ;-)
thirty seven.
today is MY day.
happy birthday to me :-D
i will be back with more, but right now it's late and getting later and i really have some stuff to do before i finally hit the hay! (lol)
happy birthday to me :-D
i will be back with more, but right now it's late and getting later and i really have some stuff to do before i finally hit the hay! (lol)
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
i guess you could call this "indian summer"
Days of heat have returned to my neck of the woods, interspersing themselves in the time of going from "hot" to "not hot" in SoCal. ;-)
Big rolling thunderheads build up in the eastern skies, oodles of fluffy white deepening the surrounding blue of the sky. They tease us with the promise of rain, but rarely deliver. Some parts of my homebase did get rained upon yesterday, but if there was any rain here, I didn't hear it. Maybe it came in the form of verga, I don't know.
What I do know that the thunder serenaded me into wakefulness yesterday morning. It was lovely, since thunderstorms are rather uncommon in these parts.
I feel myself settling back into my groove. This will be the first week back on the schedule I'd agreed upon in the first place: four days on, three days off. Lovely.
And I'm starting to feel the pull to create in my soul again. I need to take up the scissors and fine-tune images again. I need to grab my glue sticks and paste images onto paper again. I create mostly through collage, you see, and I've got a few "unfinished" projects that are quietly, patiently waiting for me.
I put "unfinished" in quotes because, in truth, I'm won't be finished with them until I'm done in this lifetime. I may reach the end of a sketchbook or a journal, but that only means I pick up another one and continue on in it. Stories are coming together in me, and soon they will be expressed through my hands, under the direction of my aesthetic gaze...
At the beginning of the harvest season, I was advised that this time of Creation was at hand. I thought it would be in the days of autumn, but outside circumstances spun me up and out of Kansas, so to speak! Now it looks like my Winter days will be the creative ones, which fits in just perfectly with the flow of the seasons. So I shall be communing with the Rainbow Serpent in the Dreamtime during the days of the dark.
At least that's the plan. Gods know that plans can change in a heartbeat! (lol)
Big rolling thunderheads build up in the eastern skies, oodles of fluffy white deepening the surrounding blue of the sky. They tease us with the promise of rain, but rarely deliver. Some parts of my homebase did get rained upon yesterday, but if there was any rain here, I didn't hear it. Maybe it came in the form of verga, I don't know.
What I do know that the thunder serenaded me into wakefulness yesterday morning. It was lovely, since thunderstorms are rather uncommon in these parts.
I feel myself settling back into my groove. This will be the first week back on the schedule I'd agreed upon in the first place: four days on, three days off. Lovely.
And I'm starting to feel the pull to create in my soul again. I need to take up the scissors and fine-tune images again. I need to grab my glue sticks and paste images onto paper again. I create mostly through collage, you see, and I've got a few "unfinished" projects that are quietly, patiently waiting for me.
I put "unfinished" in quotes because, in truth, I'm won't be finished with them until I'm done in this lifetime. I may reach the end of a sketchbook or a journal, but that only means I pick up another one and continue on in it. Stories are coming together in me, and soon they will be expressed through my hands, under the direction of my aesthetic gaze...
At the beginning of the harvest season, I was advised that this time of Creation was at hand. I thought it would be in the days of autumn, but outside circumstances spun me up and out of Kansas, so to speak! Now it looks like my Winter days will be the creative ones, which fits in just perfectly with the flow of the seasons. So I shall be communing with the Rainbow Serpent in the Dreamtime during the days of the dark.
At least that's the plan. Gods know that plans can change in a heartbeat! (lol)
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Beholding the Magick of Manifestation
Oh hai...
Before I go too much further along the road, I want to share with you a bit on what happened when I went to Philly, and as it turns out, the New Jersey area as well.
As I was flying in to Philly, my seatmates were a couple who lived in Jersey. They had boarded the plane in NC as refugees from a cancellation from another plane company. We actually had some conversation from NC to PA. (Yes, a marvelous change of pace in our age of iPods & laptops! lol)
Their recommendations to me: the Camden Aquarium, Liberty Mall, the Liberty Bell, and the consumption of a Philly Cheesesteak sandwich.
Well, I had arranged to meet my net-friend T. the next afternoon. As we drove into New Jersey, the beach came up in the conversation. So since she lives so close to the beach, we paid it a visit. I knew there was a reason to pack my swimsuit, even though my duffle had been stretched to overflowing to make the trip! So now I have set feet in the Atlantic Ocean as well as the Pacific. :-)
As I went on, I hooked up with K., another other net-friend. She and the bf thought visiting the (Camden) Adventure Aquarium was an excellent idea (ping! manifestation no. 1!) So we paid them a visit - or is that paid them to visit? - where there was a huge surprise waiting for me in the main tank: a hammerhead shark that had arrived in the area on the SAME DAY as I had!
to digress a moment...the hammerhead is the first of my totem animals that revealed itself unto me, with the cat a close second. i've been agog about hammerheads since i could read, and i started reading when i was three. their importance in my life truly belongs in another post, but the synchronicity of seeing THIS shark in ze tank was/is huge.
Back to the vacay...from friends to family I went. My uncle B. took me into downtown Philly the next day. The Liberty Mall, I discovered, wasn't a shopping district, but an historical one (manifestation no. 2). So we prowled around, taking in Independence Hall and the Liberty Bell (manifestation no. 3!). Then we walked a short way over to Ben Franklin's homestead & visited his museum. It wouldn't have been a proper vacation for me to go to Philly without paying my respects to our Founding pagan Father, now, would it? ;-)
As for the Philly Cheesesteak sandwich - well, that failed to manifest. I was seduced by an eggplant panini instead, with some curly fries. Hey, three out of four ain't bad. ;-)
May I continue to synch up with the Universe in ever more delight*full and delicious ways...
Before I go too much further along the road, I want to share with you a bit on what happened when I went to Philly, and as it turns out, the New Jersey area as well.
As I was flying in to Philly, my seatmates were a couple who lived in Jersey. They had boarded the plane in NC as refugees from a cancellation from another plane company. We actually had some conversation from NC to PA. (Yes, a marvelous change of pace in our age of iPods & laptops! lol)
Their recommendations to me: the Camden Aquarium, Liberty Mall, the Liberty Bell, and the consumption of a Philly Cheesesteak sandwich.
Well, I had arranged to meet my net-friend T. the next afternoon. As we drove into New Jersey, the beach came up in the conversation. So since she lives so close to the beach, we paid it a visit. I knew there was a reason to pack my swimsuit, even though my duffle had been stretched to overflowing to make the trip! So now I have set feet in the Atlantic Ocean as well as the Pacific. :-)
As I went on, I hooked up with K., another other net-friend. She and the bf thought visiting the (Camden) Adventure Aquarium was an excellent idea (ping! manifestation no. 1!) So we paid them a visit - or is that paid them to visit? - where there was a huge surprise waiting for me in the main tank: a hammerhead shark that had arrived in the area on the SAME DAY as I had!
to digress a moment...the hammerhead is the first of my totem animals that revealed itself unto me, with the cat a close second. i've been agog about hammerheads since i could read, and i started reading when i was three. their importance in my life truly belongs in another post, but the synchronicity of seeing THIS shark in ze tank was/is huge.
Back to the vacay...from friends to family I went. My uncle B. took me into downtown Philly the next day. The Liberty Mall, I discovered, wasn't a shopping district, but an historical one (manifestation no. 2). So we prowled around, taking in Independence Hall and the Liberty Bell (manifestation no. 3!). Then we walked a short way over to Ben Franklin's homestead & visited his museum. It wouldn't have been a proper vacation for me to go to Philly without paying my respects to our Founding pagan Father, now, would it? ;-)
As for the Philly Cheesesteak sandwich - well, that failed to manifest. I was seduced by an eggplant panini instead, with some curly fries. Hey, three out of four ain't bad. ;-)
May I continue to synch up with the Universe in ever more delight*full and delicious ways...
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